jealousy

what is this? i hate this feeling. it just makes people feel bad about something. is it natural for people to feel this feeling? but how can someone like me to control this?
i've checked in electronic longman advanced american dictionary about the word jealousy. this noun means the feeling of being jealous. and the second meaning tells an act of being jealou, or something you are jealous about.
it's been almost 27 years since i was bornt to this world, and i went through this life until now, the feeling still have its place in this body. i dont know how to overcome it. even i tried, its still give me a hard time whenever something pull the trigger.
people say there are two kinds of jealousy which are..

but i believe, i can slowly control this feeling. i do this.

this energy..

when i was a child, i like to play around with friends at our housing area's playground. it's really near to the surau n our religion school. er is it ok to call religion school? hehhe i dont know the exact word for the school. the religion school is under JAIS management until now.
the main story that i wanna tell u guys is about my activities during my childhood that really made me tired because i was using too many stamina to play with my friends. although it was too tiresome playing football, hide n chase, and other malay traditional plaything like galah panjang n kenda-kendi, it were very very the berry strawberry fun to play with. at that time we still a child n dont really care about mix with girls. but sometimes we did care huhuh. but guys actually like to disturb girls heheh.
sometimes we asked girls to challenge us playing galah panjang. it is boys n girls fight heheh. it was fun to sakat girls heheh. but some of my boyfriend were quite harsh to them until they pushed the girls quite hard. then can you imagine the girl who was pushed hard fell down like a smelly jackfruit teehehe. that's very pitty. she couldnt balance her body n hurt her knee.
see, to think about our childhood makes me feel energetic. n i hope i can be a child forever in terms of their energy n freedom. but through time n experience make us more mature..

a new beginning heart

alphabet letters start from A..

numbers start from 1.. (some people say 0 is not a number)

harfu hijaiyyah start from alif..

human starts from soil..

before finish line, there should be a starting line..

and here it is, it's my kick off for the smell of smelly bunny's page..

dedicated to my black bunny..

she's the most responsible person who encourage me to start over after too many hard times happened in my life..

but today..

i just made a mistake..

a big mistake for me..

and i didn't really sure what's the real problem..

it's start from me..

i'm really sorry..

again.. 

it is my first start..

actually just want to sharpen my english..

honestly my english is very poor..

but for my future sake, i should do something..

n i know someone or somebody or anybody out there can concern to correct my english if there's any..

feel free to jot..