burden

...
to lessen the burden,
i'll stop contacting,
since i'm the one who giving the stress,
the one who increase the stress,

hope this will be better for now...

sorry for what i did..

bad things come n disappear..
come to me good things..

sorry if i'm not that good..
but let's try towards a better and the best for all..

this love is too strong for u..
how's ur love for me...?

this feeling..

huarghh..i feel sleepy rite now.
what should i do?
i've already took my breakfast this morning after sending my mom to hospital serdang.
she's going to have her medical check up on high blood pressure.
she said, on previous check up, the doc said there's some holes on her blood line's valves.
i hope my mom will be fine sooner.

after i sent her, i went to the restaurant near to my house to buy some breakfast for people at home.
i bought 7 pieces of roti canai as my dad's request.
when i reached the restaurant, i sat on the chair in front of the roti canai maker who is doing his duty as usual.
then a boy who is a waiter there ask me for order.
i ordered him to pump down for 50 times.
heheh i'm just kidding.
i ordered as my dad's say, and a milo ais for me while waiting them preparing the roti canai.
it's fast, very fast.
my roti canai came after 2 minutes my milo ais came on my table.
i slurped all my milo ais quickly so that i can go home early.

i went to ukm after delivered the breakfast to my home.
this morning really made me feel slow.
a little bit slow.
i just like to have a really relaxing time today since tomorrow will be holiday.

heheh actually i felt something that didnt comfort me.
since when..
since yesterday night.
hmm maybe i'm just mishing her.
mishing her to be with me.
mishing her time for me.
mishing her smile.
mishing her laugh.
mishing her naughty say.
mishing her..
so much.
so so much.
so so so much..

but who's her?
don't ask me.

but i'll answer u if u do ask me teehehe..
hmm but don't be too worry.
i'll tell even you don't have any intention to ask.
she's my girl.

bun2 itam bucuk..



me mish u..
every tick of the clock of mine.

(^_^)>

miss her

i just dont know what to put down here..all i know rite now i really miss her much..
here some lyric i copypasted it to show my current feeling..



Miss you Like Crazy
Moffatts


I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love

The love that I never had
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even More than words can say
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down when your
love's not around

I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need

Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

y?

i feel not comfortable with myself..what's the matter with me?

meet the supervisor

yesterday i had a call from my supervisor. he asked me to take my signed progress report for previous sem. as usual i just answered aa..aa..aa. to mean that ok..ok..ok.. heheh i'm a simple man. with simple answer. maybe i didnt have any good respon as usual heheh..
he asked me to take the envelope of report tomorrow at his room at jkmb. tomorrow means today. so after i finished doing my tutorial on finite element method software, Patran n Nastran, it were damn bothersome though, i went to my supervisor at about 1230pm. when i reached the room's door, i knocked. the door was already unlocked n not tight. after 2 times i knocked the door, i waited for any voice of him.. but nothing's come out. so i just gave myself some guts to open the door n throw some peek inside.
erk i saw him n he saw me. we did an eye contact teehehe.. but luckily we're not falling in love each other..*eewwwww* i just straight forward went to the front of his table n said,

" sorry to disturb u, dr"

" oh, i forgot to fill the report. i was just finished my lecture n came here to check some e-mails," he responed. "ok, i'll fill it now, but why dont u just xerox the previous report that i just filled it before?" he added. "it'd be easy isnt it,".

i replied to him," ah, i dont think i'd open the envelope since it said it is confidential. so i dont have any intention to open it. but if u dont mind, i'll just.."

"ah it's ok. i'll just copy it like before. just give me the previous report that i've already filled," said the supervisor.

"roger that sir. i'll get the sealed envelope right away sir," i gave some confident answer.

there i go..i rushed to my lab to get the envelope of my 1st sem progress report immediately returned back to my supervisor's room at faculty's building' 3rd level, which is the top level of the building. i just used the stairs for my leg's toughness. teehehe..

that's all folks..

jealousy

what is this? i hate this feeling. it just makes people feel bad about something. is it natural for people to feel this feeling? but how can someone like me to control this?
i've checked in electronic longman advanced american dictionary about the word jealousy. this noun means the feeling of being jealous. and the second meaning tells an act of being jealou, or something you are jealous about.
it's been almost 27 years since i was bornt to this world, and i went through this life until now, the feeling still have its place in this body. i dont know how to overcome it. even i tried, its still give me a hard time whenever something pull the trigger.
people say there are two kinds of jealousy which are..

but i believe, i can slowly control this feeling. i do this.

this energy..

when i was a child, i like to play around with friends at our housing area's playground. it's really near to the surau n our religion school. er is it ok to call religion school? hehhe i dont know the exact word for the school. the religion school is under JAIS management until now.
the main story that i wanna tell u guys is about my activities during my childhood that really made me tired because i was using too many stamina to play with my friends. although it was too tiresome playing football, hide n chase, and other malay traditional plaything like galah panjang n kenda-kendi, it were very very the berry strawberry fun to play with. at that time we still a child n dont really care about mix with girls. but sometimes we did care huhuh. but guys actually like to disturb girls heheh.
sometimes we asked girls to challenge us playing galah panjang. it is boys n girls fight heheh. it was fun to sakat girls heheh. but some of my boyfriend were quite harsh to them until they pushed the girls quite hard. then can you imagine the girl who was pushed hard fell down like a smelly jackfruit teehehe. that's very pitty. she couldnt balance her body n hurt her knee.
see, to think about our childhood makes me feel energetic. n i hope i can be a child forever in terms of their energy n freedom. but through time n experience make us more mature..

a new beginning heart

alphabet letters start from A..

numbers start from 1.. (some people say 0 is not a number)

harfu hijaiyyah start from alif..

human starts from soil..

before finish line, there should be a starting line..

and here it is, it's my kick off for the smell of smelly bunny's page..

dedicated to my black bunny..

she's the most responsible person who encourage me to start over after too many hard times happened in my life..

but today..

i just made a mistake..

a big mistake for me..

and i didn't really sure what's the real problem..

it's start from me..

i'm really sorry..

again.. 

it is my first start..

actually just want to sharpen my english..

honestly my english is very poor..

but for my future sake, i should do something..

n i know someone or somebody or anybody out there can concern to correct my english if there's any..

feel free to jot..